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So, I'm writing this journal from my new computer, which so far is working very well, and I like it, and soon (probably later today) I'll finally be able to take a proper look at all the deviations, and read the journals that I haven't read yet, and, of course answer all the messages. I'm also planning to draw a couple of late Birthday presents, but I don't know how far that will go. So that's the good news!:)

The not so good news, however, are as follows:
 
My family is really driving me nuts lately. We all still currently live at my Big sister's and her husband's house, but now they want us out, because her husband needs his privacy. And they are the ones that took us in. They didn't even ask us, they just called me (yes, me, for some reason, not mom or grandma) and said they called the police on my step-father, and they are already on their way in their car, coming to get us. That was in April. Now they suddenly regret that decision and want us out by the next week! 
Now, I found a new job, hat pays alright, but the village where we currently live has a serious problem with transportation. I work from 9:00 to 17:00, but I wake up at 6:25 in order to get to work, and get home only at 20:30! The rest of time I spend riding trains and buses! I don't have time to practice drawing (and I'm going to have an exam for college soon), practice guitar, to workout and generally live! And my mom and grandma decided that they're going to move to a nearby village, where houses are cheaper and less fancy, and they want me to move in with them, but it actually would make schedule worse, because it has even worse transportation! And when I said that to my Grandmother, she said I'm an egoist and that I don't think about my family... And that while I've never rad a normal life BECAUSE I always supported the family. Anyways, I'm moving alone, somewhere closer to my job. So now I'll have rent to pay, and probably will have to see where I can get some extra money, because I still need to save for studies.

I've had a dream tonight, about how I've had a girlfriend. We just cuddled on a sofa, and that felt so good, not only and not mostly physically. Went I woke up though, she was gone of course. I don't think I've had such a dream before, but it made me realize how lonely I am. And lately I started thinking that I'm incapable of finding someone at all. That feeling only grows stronger with every failure. And I know that I'm goofy and confident on the internet, and around close friends, but I can't help to be awkward and insecure around strangers. It makes me feel really bad, because I know that it's not who I am, and I could give much more if I could be more open, and also receive, but I can't help that social awkwardness, and it feels bad... This is also why I wouldn't talk to a girl that I just met, and absolutely not just strike a conversation with a stranger. I've even had a few situations when girls on the street have tried to hit on me, but I either didn't realize it until it was too late (like a few hours ago, or just as they went away), or I wasn't able to respond properly... And when I've tried to ask girls that I know, who are my friends, if they wanted to go out, they always say the same thing - that I'm very cute, and they love me as a friend, but not attracted to me sexually. It's the same thing every time, and people say things like "Don't worry, you'll find someone eventually", but when is eventually? I'm lonely now! And I don't really believe them anymore... 

I'm sorry guys.... Maybe it's just that crazy roller-coaster of events and tiredness affecting me, and I'll feel better once things settle down a bit, but thank you for coping with me now, really...:)
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Yay! So I'm writing this journal on my new laptop! I should actually already be asleep, so I'll make it brief. I guess I'll be able to be more active  now, and make some digital art here and there, but my schedule is still pretty tough, so I can't promise much. Not until the next month at least. 

I also ate McDonalds for the first time today!:dummy: It wasn't super good though. And the one I ordered, had no cheese in it, even though it was called Big America, so I though it should be really classical. Guess the cheese had too much Freedom! (sorry...) It's my habit to celebrate new big purchases by eating out somewhere. It's a good tradition.:) And I also tried Tiramisu, thinking it's a Japanese dessert.X'D Though it wasn't Japanese, it was heavenly good.:D

Well, good night, my people! See you all soon!
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  • Eating: Food
  • Drinking: Drinks
So, my big sister and her husband decided to break up, while the whole family is living in their house. As it turned out he had some ulterior motive to have a custody over my little siblings, and when he founf out he won't,  he got pissed, even though he was such a nice guy up until now.
I don't know where we're going to live now, but I know it's not going to be out in the street.:) 
But... yeah, it kinda sucks. 
I'll make sure to write if there are any updates.
Take care!
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A short video of me, struggling against a professional larper for 2 minutes (the video is shorter)
I am the smaller guy (6 feet tall, actually, but this guy is a giant)

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UtopiaProduction Featured By Owner Jun 12, 2016
Thank you new times for the favorites <3
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Gary3-6-9 Featured By Owner Jun 12, 2016  Student General Artist
Of course, you're very welcome!:D
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Thank you for the watch!!
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You're welcome! :D
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Thanks for the watch!
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You're very welcome!:D
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:llama:s X2
One for me,
One for you
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Hehehehe, yep!
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HAYO!!!
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YOHA!
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